You want me to put that where?!? A lesson in perspective.

Yesterday I was the sickest I've ever been in my entire life.  I won't go into to many details other than the fact that from about midnight to 11am stuff was coming out everywhere!  I curled up into a ball many times and cried myself to sleep.  It was horrible.  I ended up speaking to my doctor who prescribed me two extra strength medications to help with everything and was told that if it didn't work by 2pm I'd need to go to the hospital.  Thankfully, the husband was able to leave work and pick up the medications.  He handed them to me and was off.

I was eager to get these miracle drugs in me until I opened the packaging.  Right there on the front of the package it directed me to insert it...and not in my mouth.  All of a sudden started talking myself into being better - "you don't need this, you're better already!" The instant this thought went through my head I ran to the bathroom to throw up.  Yep, definitely still needed the medications.  I cried - well, more of a wimper - again thinking about what I was about to do.

Then, it hit me.  I can do this.  My body is making two - count them - two humans! In just six short months I will be delivering these babies - and no matter how it goes it's going to be more painful and awkward than this.  After that I'm probably going to have to be doing some other gross stuff (like sucking snot outta their noses with a pump) after the birth.  So - this little dose of medication, in the grand scheme of things, is nothing!

You'll all be proud to know (or grossed out) that I did in fact go ahead with the medication - actually twice!  And it was a miracle.  I really think it's what enabled me to get fluids in and avoid the hospital.  Am I still sick? Yeah, my stomach is weak and I'm exhausted - but I can get fluids in and eat small things like crackers and  yogurt.  I'm still worried about the twins - and all they had to endure yesterday - but the nurse assures me they should be fine.  And after all of that, somehow, I feel a little bit more ready to be a mother.